I feel a strong lack of motivation. I have never really been one much for school. At first I was very difficult, those old feelings started to arise. I wanted to quit. I had to keep reminding myself that I was paying for this. It was my money on the line and I am not wealthy at all. I managed to stick through it. “I can do this”, I would tell myself subconsciously. I have really been trying to turn over a new leaf this year. I want to try instead of not caring or half assing it. I get a lot of support at home. My grandma is always trying to give me money for books or lunch or anything she can find to use as an excuse. Of course I never take the money though, unless I really need it. My mom is very supportive I think she is more motivated than me and I am the one going to college. She genuinlly asks about my day that keeps me pushing on. Work is also a good motivater, because I don’t want to end up there forever like some of the guys. It’s a good job just not for me. Thinking of the future is another good motivation. One day like most people I would like a family of my own. I want to be able to take care of my family and not have to worry about a thing. I want to live comfortably is what I am really getting at. So I would have to say my lack of motivation is slowly moving in a positive direction. I hope I can gain more momentum as the semester goes on and I hope not to lose it.